Bearing My Cross

by:

Sebastciaun T. Censtcuriaus

As there is no escape from the pain, I only embrace what Love that remains inside my mind and illusion of what Love is to be. I can no longer search or seek that which is unforseen for beknownst to me.

For upon my mind I laid this desolate plan of mind's eye insurrection;

Dominoes and chains ripple forth and looking back I am nothing more than shock and awe!

To see a vast endless point of destruction that what is to be a creation;

How can this world ever come to know what it is to create!

When all things great and good have been laid to waste?!

I triumph my fears and folly with a plan of self fulfillment;

The expense of others was my selfish rendition!

Accredited words and phrases are my poetic way of portrayal:

A world I see that is nothing more than a mirror of refracted collection!

A minds eye feel for the consciousness of those who are aware!

This world is a reflection of this soul connection that is forever real;

Inside myself I see that this is just mere fallacy and limit of illusion.

How can I better annunciate my words to feeling what I know is true?

Explain to me the vastness of truth and as defense I'll give a Lie;

The factor that lies are attractive and are nothing but one in the same with Sanity!

I have plead my whole life to be sane, Now I embrace Insanities Curse!

For no longer I see a curse I am the Gift of my own Grace;

Forever I will walk Naked of Evil without there careless brace!

To know gratitude that One is right is nothing that I place upon a Liars Chair!

To give excellence to Love's Tasteful Lips is this void I have forever placed.

Dimensions of Fallacy to Cover the Healing of Eternity and Vast Creation;

The key of love and divine forgiveness for that of ignorance is where I found my soulless taste;

Resurrected upon my lighted face I look and see a sour man's reflection of inner cries.

I am broken but forever paired with a fluidity of formless;

Forever and Eternal my Immortal.

To be inside the heart and vision the start that is the finish!

The beginning and the End;

The Alpha and Omega.

A door to the start, from my sinful heart.

I breathe forth for eternal forgiveness upon my destruction of my pities of self;

Never pain; Never Love; Never Hate;

What a Shameless Waste! To be stuck in validity of Nothing but Solidity of Everything!

Annotated perspectives on my souls destructive peace that is my absolution for my sins I reap;

Sow forth and reap I have;

To change the effect will be forever a vanity in my stride!

Never to Look, Never to Seek, For I am found by my own selection.

Forever and Ever I am never Lost, For I walk forth Bearing my own Cross.